.ordinary One.

Friends are the only one person who always beside us in happiness and hard time. We should appreciate for their presence in our daily life. I love to make friend, because I am the friendly one. I can pretend my smile to show my fake happiness. This is wrong. Yes I knew it. But I have to just for anyone around me. When I start to know that person, and I love them, it is hard for me to let them go. If they want to, I can do nothing. This is me. No, this is bad me. I am just ordinary person. Everyone can be broken heart one. Same goes to me. It is can be a long time to wait a person who we loved to text or contact us even in short time. I can be ignorance person. Seriously I am the bad one in. maybe I have lack of the kindness things in myself. In friendship. Friends is the things can influence our mood,just myself. I can’t accept the person slowly leave me for no reasons. I am a normally friends, I just want to make you happy even you are not seeing this to me.

 iera redha kalau iera memang bukan kawan yang baik untuk anda.

 I believe you can get better one than me. they said I can’t leave my hands off for this thing. I have a lot sacrifice my feeling, to be pretend in front of you, this fake smile, just shit things in my life ! 

ya Allah. I think I can’t live in yours like you. Don’t frown your forehead if you seeing my deeply heartless. Now ,friends are influence things for me. my tears easily rolling down just for this simple thing. I am easily give up. Once I have trapped myself in this kind problem, I lost. 

Can you keep care my heart? I don’t ask for it, but please lahhh. My heart is not blind, but I keep it to cover my heart to take it easy problem. I always put aside my ego between my friends. For me, no old friends, no new friends. Friends in my life is same. no level, no rank. 

I may not be your best friend, could hanging around with you and having fun. But I am trying to be your good friend. Not always be with you, but when you cry, I'll be there. When you're happy, I congrats and happy for you :)

Thanks for always beside me before, thanks a lot. I always love you and ever ,InsyaAllah. 

rindu kat korang...

asyik mimpi korang je wahai kawan2 lama ku ! 

iera takut nak start contact dengan korang. .iera takut bile korang tak reply or response tak best punyer. .

membuatkan hati iera hancur kecewa sakit. .

haihh. .

iera try jugak to get contact sebab dah cuti sem kan nieyh. .sure masing2 kat rumah dah nieyh. .

first, iera text si A. .dia tak reply pun. .dah dua hari berlalu weyhh. .

ape yang membuatkan dia tak reply message iera eak ?

dia yang iera harap takkan kecewakan iera macam mana iera expect tuh. .

but,she did. :(

rasa macam nak nangis je. .niey yang nak jadi macam budak2 nieyh. .pikir dah tak matang dah bila terlalu mengikutkan hati. .haishhh.

so. .iera takut nak contact si B and si C. .

iera rasa si B and si C selalu contact kut. .the only one not is me. .

bukan iera tak ingat korang. .iera ingat ! cuma iera takut nak start contact korang. .

ape yang iera dah start kat si A, buat iera takut nak text kat si B and si C. .

i'm so sorry. .

tapi iera akan try to catch my courage to get contact dengan korang. .

siapa yang tak nak keep contact dengan member lama. .sekolah2 dulu. .

sebab kawan time sekolah lagi rapat. .and relationship tuh memang memakan masa yang lama. .

hmm. .

iera jealous bile tengok orang lain rapat dengan member2 sekolah diorang walaupun diorang dah belajar kat tempat lain2. .

untung korang kann. .maybe iera berada kat tempat yang kurang nasib baik kut. .

atau. .

i'm not good enough in friendship ?

hmm. .

iera dah cuba commit sebaik mungkin. .maybe still ade kekurangan kut. .

yang iera tak nampak. .

mama pulak macam tak percaya kawan masa zaman sekolah akan rapat or still get along even kita dah tak satu tempat belajar lagi. .

teori mama betul ke ? iera tak nak percaya sangat. .sebab iera tak rasa korang buat macam tuh. .

and iera pun takkan buat macam tuh kat korang. .

cume, perasaan takut tuh lagi banyak daripada berani. .

macam mana nieyh ? haihh.

iera sayang korang. .sayang sangat2. .iera tak pernah lupa kat korang. .im sorry. .sebab iera tak contact korang. iera tunggu korang. .maybe korang pun tunggu iera jugakkan ?

i hope so. .if yes, im glad to hear that :)